We might not all be puppets, but we’re all –surely- attached to strings. Whether these strings formed based off of ideas, decisions and/or thoughts, or they were assigned to us by other people, and/or society. These strings might guide us to a better fate, or doom. I chose for myself to be attached to one string, and one string only. The one string that gave me a purpose to go by my day. The one string that helped me throughout, and kept me hoping for a better future. A future where I don’t numb myself anymore. The future that, will prove to everyone around me that I am so much more than what they see, or think of me. I am destined for greatness! that’s what I kept telling myself. That is my string. That is my fate.
Here I am, just turned 18 years old, I left my home, my family, my hometown and .. friends .. to go out, start a new life. Have a fresh start. Especially since I lost my one true friend Mason, which oddly resulted in gaining more friends by bonding over that unfortunate event. I’m older now, I’m more mature than I ever was. I am more responsible, and hopefully I’ll be making better decisions in life. The life I lived prior to this moment was nothing but a way to cope with my surroundings, and my upbringing in that household, living with my family. As strange of a coping technique it was, I will never be ashamed of it, I will embrace it. And use it to create a better future for myself and others.
I started to think more about my life, and what I’d wanna do with it when I started high school. As much as I loved my life as it was, my actual life that is, I wanted to do something about it .. I wanted to bring all my achievements in the virtual world, and my passion for it to the real lifeless world. I started to think about what positive impact could it leave in young kids, like I was once.
For the longest time, people around me have doubted me, my classmates, my teachers, my siblings, and my parents, heck even I doubted myself for the most part. I never was good in school, or anything else ever, I never was good at even simply holding a conversation with my own closest siblings, as close as they .. were .. not. I tend to mostly shut everyone out, because they simply don’t understand me, nor they get how I wanted to live my life.
But now that I am older, I wanted to change all of that. I wanted to show everyone my life, my actual life. I wanted them to see for themselves, to understand. Somehow I will figure out a way to do it. Instead of bringing them to my world, that they will never understand, I will bring my world to them. I know now that I am destined for greater things in life, I have something to prove, and work towards. I wanna show that to the rest of the world, and share it with them. I don’t want to be living isolated anymore. Nor do I want it for anyone else.
I started a new life with the first semester in college, away from home. I majored in business. I figured since I wanted to do something about my life, build a company that breaks the barrier between my world and the real world for people to witness, and experience. And, hopefully, pave the way for generations to come, of isolated kids who live a much better life than what it’s real. Somehow, merge the two worlds together. In my own sense, I wanted to make a revolution. As one-sided/narrow minded as my ideas were, I really wanted to change how people see things, starting with this.
I made sure that I take my time in exploring things in college, getting to know what could help me take a few steps into what I will be making in the future, getting experience in little tasks that would allow me gain knowledge that would be beneficial. I didn’t want to ignore or let go of any opportunity. Whether it was joining clubs on campus, volunteer work, campus surveys, I was trying my best to get into every experience I had the slightest interest in.
One day, In a Communication/Media class that I took, one of the Gen-Ed classes I had to take, which talks about media, and it’s effect on society, specifically video games, movies, TV shows, and commercials. The professor announced in class that we will receive an email regarding an opportunity to be a subject for a study, and that it would be considered as an extra credit in the class added to the final grade. Since I was not doing so great, as usual, in my classes, I thought I should take it. And also since I needed to know how studies work in general, especially that I never went through or been a part of a study ever. I saw this more of an opportunity to learn something new, that might help me in my future business, simply because collecting data is very important in any type of business, or study in this case. Little did I know, this is where my story started. This is the beginning of my destiny. This is my great destiny.
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